Saturday, August 31, 2019

The Lovers - Chapter 1

Meet Bill, an ex Chicago cop who relocates in Newport Beach, CA.


One - Bill

Newport Beach was nothing like Chicago, thought Bill. The ocean and its people were becoming his passion. No mistaking the painstaking efforts of the people to look good, really, really good—the women knocked ‘em dead.  Bill was restless as he walked seaside, breathing in the fresh, salty sea air.  He glanced at the legs coming down the boardwalk, legs that looked smooth all the way up.  Dashing by on rollerblades, denim shorts, revealed oh so tight buns.  Sisters, busting out of twin bikini tops, on closer inspection were mother and daughter.  A solitary woman, in a soft cotton dress with no underwear, no adornments, just the curves, smiled as she passed.  This was the way women were supposed to be.  Jesus, one day he’d be lucky enough to be with one of these babes, it was due to him. He had worked out every day, let go of the fats, his waist, and the memory of Bette, his ex-wife.  At forty, life could begin again.

He pushed the hair back from his eyes and picked up his pace. The waves broke along the ocean, lit by the luminescence of the early evening moon.  They broke in a steady rhythm, a string of pearls along the sea as the moon revealed itself through the clouds. No matter how fast he went he could not shut out the pain of his past. It echoed in his soul, and in his walk.

Two years ago, the injury that had forced him to quit the force, brought him out to California.  His boss and good friend, John, had shoved him on a plane.  They were sick of him, as much as he was sick of not working.  How he longed for the work again, the adrenalin pumping, squashing the criminalsgiving them their due.  He hated the drug kings—starting the young kids at ten on the stuff.  He could still see the face of the kid—mouth open, gasping for air, air that was no longer coming as the doctor and nurses were fighting for a pulse.  He had to stop going to the hospital with the victims.  It made him too angry, with nowhere to vent his emotion.  Emotion he was not supposed to have. It was on the playground at Evans Elementary that he had almost bled to death fighting Mark Ross, the fucking asshole who took the lives of children.

Bill headed towards the steep hill between the piers to reach the beach.  Holding his leg to still his limp, he descended the road to the beach.  He wanted to get closer to the shore. The water was very warm, even this late in the year, due to an offshore hurricane in Mexico.  Ahead, in the distance, Bill thought he spotted someone drowning.  His acute vision could not make out if it was a child or an adult as the waves washed over the body.  In a split second, holding his injured leg, he raced to the water’s edge, waiting for the tide to reveal the body.  Instead, a baby dolphin lay on its back, flaying its tail, gasping for air.

He was at a loss.  Nothing in his police training had prepared him for this.  Not even his CPR classes.  Bill knew that the dolphin was struggling and didn’t have much time to live. He looked around for help.  There was one middle-aged man nearby.

“Hey you,” he shouted.  “I need your help, come quickly.”

The man instantly came to his side.  “Tell me what to do.”

“Straddle her with all your strength, and hold on to her fins gently,” he commanded.  “I’m going to find out why she can’t breathe properly.”

Bill inhaled deeply, and in one quick motion opened the dolphin's mouth.  He put his right hand gently in and felt around. Nothing.  The dolphin was desperately gasping for air.  Bill moved his hand deeper in the mouth.  Nothing.

“Shit!  Something is obstructing its breathing.  I can’t find it.”

He released and closed the animal’s jaw, gently stroking its head.  “It’s going to be okay...I’ll save you,” he whispered.

A crowd had gathered, but Bill kept his focus.  It was something he had learned in his fifteen years on the force, what kept him alive.  “I’m going to open her mouth again,” he said to his new partner.  “On the count of three hold her very still.  I’m going to have to go in deeper to find out what’s wrong.” He was thinking that not unlike a baby he rescued that had turned blue, perhaps the animal had an object stuck in its throat.

“One...two...three!”  Bill opened her jaw, dug around and felt a plastic obstruction lodged in the  throat.  Placing thumb and forefinger around it, he pulled it out—it was the remnant of a child’s red balloon. 

Instantly the dolphin sprayed water through its snout.  It was breathing again.  Bill looked over at the crowd and called out, “Come help me push her back to sea,” to two young muscular men.  The four of them easily pushed the dolphin past the shore, into the waves of the deeper waters, where the dolphin rewarded the crowd with a series of melodic sounds as it leaped through the water, heading towards the horizon.

The audience, captivated by the rescue, clapped, cheered, and howled.  About thirty people had gathered to watch the rescue.  The clouds created shadows on their faces; their eyes, noses, and mouths blended together as one.  Bill wiped the sweat off his forehead with the back of his sleeve, ignoring the praise of the crowd. The pain of his past had deadened him somewhere inside that he could not reach.  He turned away from the crowd as the clouds gave way to the light of the moon.  In the distance he saw the silhouette of a lovely woman.  She walked alone, away from the crowd.  The waves rolled gently in, covering her feet with a white foam as she strolled by.

She was perfect, with almond shaped iridescent eyes that glanced at him for a moment, or was it the reflection of the moon?  Her movements were graceful, a lithe creature of the night that disappeared into the shadows.


It was a whole new world here in Newport and Bill did not know where to start.  He was blowing his pension, but it fought the depression.  At forty and single he felt alone in the world.  As he passed a newsstand he fought the urge for a cigarette.  No more.  If he was going to live in this plastic world of beauty, he wanted to look good, too.  He grabbed the handle of his bag tighter and quickened his pace to the gym.  A lovely young brunette stared at his biceps as he walked by, seemingly entranced by the smoothness and strength of his arms.  Perhaps there was hope, after all.

Bill entered the cool lobby of the gym on Balboa Island, a few blocks away from the beach. The entrance was crowded this time of day with ladies. Ladies with the biggest boobs he had ever seen.  Even the older ones.  Ladies, oh they weren’t supposed to be called that.  Jesus, this women’s revolution wasn’t for him.  Men were supposed to be men, and women, women.  He longed for a woman that made him feel good, again, understood what was in his heart.

“Hey, Jack,” he called out to the desk clerk.

“What’s doing?” replied Jack.

He took his card and went to the locker room to change.  He smoothed his blond wavy hair as he went by the mirror. He hummed a little tune, from the 70’s disco era, from Saturday Night Fever,

Then I get night fever, night fever.

Not too bad, Bill thought, as he took a survey of his body.  Strong, muscular calves, from years of bike riding, defined his legs.   He flexed his smooth, steel biceps that ­­­the ladies loved.  Yes, he knew that. Bill didn’t need steroids to build him up.  Glancing at his waist, he knew that he needed work, there.  Oh, shit.  That’s the price one paid for being single. As he climbed the stairs, Bill felt the dull and constant pain in his left leg.  He limped slightly and looked around to see if anyone noticed it.

He began his workout for the upper body, shoulders, and back.  While lifting and questioning the purpose of his life, Bill noticed a woman across the room. She was a cut above, he could feel it in his gut.  His instinct reflected his emotions.  Her eyes were intense, bright, showing the inner light of her being.    A full, lush mouth accented with bright red lipstick matched her nails. Blood red.  Long, very long strawberry blonde curly hair, the kind that you couldn’t control.  The kind of hair his ex had tried to get in the salon, but came out looking fried instead. At first it looked as if she were naked.  Her boobs were high, not as high as the silicone ones he saw in the movies, these fine works of art moved ceremoniously as she inhaled to do her exercises.  She bent over to pick up her weights and Bill held his breath, adjusting his shorts. No—he was not going to do this again. Maybe it was not emotion he felt for her.   He was not going to be roped in just by the looks.  These were always the women who were trouble; they were too good for everybody, including themselves. But he could not take his eyes off of her.  He wiped the sweat off his face and continued on to the treadmill.  He set the timer for forty-five minutes, and at level eight with an incline.  He was off and running, toweling the sweat, watching the news, and watching the outstanding redhead.

To find out more and order The Lovers:
https://www.amazon.com/Lovers-Jennifer-Marshall/dp/1484104528

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Book excerpt from The Lovers

Go on an adventure in my book The Lovers. Find out if Nadine marries her financial successful fiancé, or she runs away with her devastatingly gorgeous mentor, White Eagle.


(Nadine)"She sat listening to the earthy tones of the flute.  The long, sorrowful notes were familiar, as if she had experienced this moment before.  Perhaps there was more to this life than she had imagined.  Maybe there was a deeper, more divine purpose for her life."

To order The Lovers click the link below:
https://www.amazon.com/Lovers-Jennifer-Marshall/dp/1484104528

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

Secret of a loving relationship


The secret of creating a loving relationship begins with releasing the past.


One of the most frequent desires in life is to be in a happy, loving relationship. How can we find true love?  Is this something that is far from our reach, or within our destiny?


The quest for love is intrinsic. We want to feel cherished and loved, and return the feeling with another.

The truth is that love is right here for us now, within us, no matter what the outside conditions of our lives present. We are not powerless, but powerful, loving people. We can tap into the infinite well of love at any moment.

Our minds define our reality. To bring power in your life only requires a change of perception, even with the most difficult of circumstances.

To begin the journey of creating love we need to release our past hurts, mistakes, and regrets.

Let us see how we can make this work for ourselves:

1. Define your past in a healthy and positive way. Know that your beautiful self is created from everything, yes, everything in your past up until this very moment.

2. See the good in your relationships and circumstances. For example, see your past from a different perspective. Your relationship with your spouse brought you your wonderful children, your parents created you! Your loss made you stronger, your illness taught you how to be healthy.

3. Trust your life path.  Have confidence in your decisions, rather than thinking the future will be the same as the past.  This helps eliminate thoughts like 'all women/men are jerks.'



Try the exercise below to help clear the past:

In your mind's eye imagine that you are standing in front of a person that you have strong emotion with.  With outstretched arms, see yourself giving them all their scattered energy and thoughts that you have accumulated. Tell them what you need to say- you are hurt, angry, frustrated, scared.  Imagine that you are now receiving all your scattered energy back from them. Next, forgive them and yourself for not having had the situation be the way you desired it.

Lastly, end with knowing you are a wonderful, loving person.  See the light of your soul and take that light into the world.






Wednesday, August 07, 2019

A type Z person knows who he is, follows his heart and lives his dreams in his own manner rather than the dictates of society.






Because I am single I am often asked what qualities I seek in a relationship partner. I have the usual standard answers, loving, kind, funny, cute, etc.



But I have one important quality that I look for in a partner and that is a person who is willing to live their life in a relaxed and calm manner, in a happy and healthy way. This makes for a true easy going relationship, without room for disharmony in our every day lives. A relationship can be your sacred place of peace and harmony. I know this sounds idealistic but it is not that hard to create.


A person who lives their life in a calm and relaxed manner is a type Z person. 

I first learned this idea from Marcus Allen, a brilliant writer and publisher of NEW WORLD LIBRARY. He is different and a pioneer because he chooses to live outside the mediocre rules of life yet still maintains a happy family and hugely successful business that promotes service and makes a difference in the lives of not only the readers of his book, but within his own.(see The Millionaire Course)


A type Z person does everything that everyone else may do, but in a more MINDFUL way, with awareness.

Are you a type Z person?

Qualities of a type z person

1.  Handles the day in a relaxed manner, instead of yelling at coworkers, family, customer service reps throughout the day.

2.  Enjoys their life, even the mundane tasks, does them with awareness.

3.  Does one task at a time, and does it well instead of multi tasking several at once.

4.  Considers what they says BEFORE speaking, will this be a good communication or a hurtful one?

5.  Considers what his role in life is and follows his path regardless of what others say or may think of him.

6.  Is not busy every moment of the day, with to do lists that can never be completed.

7.   Allows time for for himself and his family and loved ones.

This creates a peaceful, satisfying lifestyle. The more persons who choose to be calm, and happy changes the balance of their environment, helping others to feel the same way, and thus we have a rippling effect, with more conscious lives and better relationships.








Friday, August 02, 2019

The Lovers, a novel


The Lovers, a metaphysical journey of love, is a powerful and timely story of modern love and karmic connections.


Nadine fits in perfectly in her native Newport Beach seaside town in Southern California.  However, when she travels to Sedona, Arizona with her financially successful fiancĂ©, she finds herself mesmerized by her guide, White Eagle, and must choose between love, lust, and security.


Bill is an ex Chicago cop who relocates to Newport Beach after being shot in a drug bust.  He questions the meaning of life when he suddenly meets the most beautiful woman of his life, Nadine, who pays him no attention.


Sean, a corporate environmental lawyer in LA, is Nadine's secret lover.  Disillusioned about love, he commits to no woman.


White Eagle, a strong, imposing presence of a man, is an ancient spirit incarnated to bring wisdom: "This journey opens your third eye, where there is no time boundary.  You can slip into the past, see your karmic destiny."